not even the promise of the sweetest honey between my thighs is temptation enough to convince you to stay. my silky skin hardens every day that passes, green weeds pressing their way through to the surface, angry and ready for war. they slip over my freckles and promise to protect me this time. gnarled and pointed, they carve their way over my body, alongside the thin scars i gave myself in that corner, huddled on top of our dirty clothes. i will let them take over, and i will let them propel me forwards. they will do me no harm.
your eyes are not green like emeralds.
they are the colour of the dress i wore the first day in poland and spent days communicating through movement, a soundless dance, with grandparents who had never tasted english. it was the first time i left my family, the first time i set roots down somewhere other than my parent’s house. mosquitoes ravaged my bare legs in the forest on those nightly cycles, and your eyes reflect the leaves on those tall, tall trees. we could barely see the sky. do you remember the evenings on that dirty bench in the courtyard, necks craned backwards into the bushes, squinting towards the heavens?
they are the green like the matcha you promised to try with me, but chose instead to test it with her. i hope it tasted like betrayal. bitter. are there weeds clogging your throat? are they dragging their edges along the inside of your mouth, drawing hot blood?
when i visited the ocean last week, i swore i felt your breath on my neck again, your hands holding my waist in place. as i turned to plant a kiss on your lips, there was nothing but seaweed drying in the sun. your eyes may be green, but mine are as brown as that brittle seaweed.
the weeds are growing. shall i allow them to devour the memory of you and your green eyes?